Wednesday, October 27, 2010

What - Random Two...

It is Random Dozen time or should we say Random Two.  Our dear friend Lid from 2nd Cup Of Coffee is giving up the Post.  Just want to thank her for always having the most interesting, sometimes different questions for us to answer.  She will be missed.  Ok on with the questions before we have to bring out the hankies.
Here are the two questions for this week:

1.  What scares you the most  Physically and Emotionally?  Why does it scare you and how do you cope?

2.  What comes to mind when you read the phrase "Nothing gold can stay?"

PHYSICALLY: My dad had senile dementia and was in the nursing home for 8 years. That scares me, not the nursing home part, but the not knowing what is going on around you or even who you are sometimes. His was caused from the small blood vessels in his head not getting enough oxygen to his brain. The very small vessels can be hereditary. That scares me. My hubby and my daughter already know if the time came where I too had dementia, do not hesitate or feel guilty about a nursing home.

This scares me because as I said my dad was in the nursing home for 8 years, and I seen what it did to my mom and remember how it made me feel. It is so hard when there is nothing you can do to fix it. As far as coping, I try not to think about it a lot and I pray about it. I also go in for check ups every 6 months and have all the levels checked and the pacemaker checked.

EMOTIONALLY: Of course the normal hoping nothing happens to your kids or grandkids, but I have two other issues that scare me and make me want to have a run away at times. One is horses, it’s funny because we were at a parade a few years back and there were horses, and they were acting up, and sidestepping towards us on the side of the road. My daughter grabbed my arm and said Mom it’s ok. She said she seen the look of panic in my eyes.

Let me explain: I always loved horses, always loved to go riding, but back in 1980 that all changed. A friend and I were riding in our little town of Appleton. We had stopped and got a canned soda and were sitting on the horses under a shade tree. A kid came riding up behind us on his bicycle and my horse got spooked. I knew it was going to take off and I knew I had to grab those reigns, so I dropped my can on the ground well that is all it took. We were right by the road and when it got in the road it started rearing up then bucking. The second time it bucked I went over the front and it reared up when it came back down I was unconscious before I hit the pavement, and the horse took off. They called the ambulance out and I was in and out of consciousness. They were not sure what my injuries were and I was told they used a backboard and neck braces, scared everyone to death. In fact someone called my brother in Illinois that I had broke my back, he was trying to arrange airfare. You got to love small towns! We lived 20 miles from town so it took a while for them to get there and at that time we did not have 911 or first responders. The coroner even came with the ambulance because they were not sure if I was going to make it or not. When I arrived at the hospital at Russellville, they decided I needed to be transferred to Little Rock because I was not responding. So I was transferred to St Vincent and was there 3 days before I regained full consciousness, before that I was just in and out. I had to have stitches in several places on my face. The second day there I was awake and asked the nurses aid if I could see a mirror, and she did not know I had not seen myself. Oh my gosh, I screamed, it looked like I had been in a knock down drag out fight. You have to remember I was unconscious when I hit the ground, so I did not cover my face. I literally ate the pavement. It was awful, I cried. Needless to say at first when I would get near a horse the blood pressure would go up and the sweat would break out.

I think the reason it scares me is the unknown. I do not remember a lot about those 3 days, except what people have told me. I do remember on the way to the hospital the ambulance had stopped at Whatta Burger for the coroner to change ambulances because there was a fatality up north. And I also remember riding in the ambulance and they told me I was on the way to Little Rock. I have finally got to where if the horse is on the other side of the fence I can pet it. I am afraid that is as good as it’s going to get.

The 2nd emotional scare is curves at least on country roads. My heart comes up in my mouth and the blood pressure elevates a little. I better explain this one too. While Stan and I were dating he would come to Arkansas on weekends. And one particular one I was up really late on Sunday night and had to work the next day. I was so tired; I finally made it through the day and was on my way home. I had almost made it home, I should of pulled over but I didn’t. I felt myself nodding off but still I kept going. The next thing I knew I woke up when my head hit the gearshift and I looked up and seen trees flying by and I said, “Oh Lord Help.” And then it felt like it just parked. I sat there for a moment and got my bearings together and got out of the car. When I stepped out, I had to look up to the road, it was way over my head, and there were trees all around. I finally managed to climb up on the road and walked a little ways to a neighbor’s house to call my daughter, but she took one look at me and said no let me take you over there. I guess I looked pretty rough, probably in shock. Janice called my son-in-law and he met us over there. We had to look for the car Clint spotted it. It was dusky dark and for some reason the taillights were on. Jan and I went back to her house and Clint got our friend with the tow truck to pull it out. They said it was a wonder it did not flip because if he would of pulled it out the way it went in it would of rolled. They had to cut trees down to get it out.

So now curves on country roads scare me a little. It scares me because I still remember looking up and knowing that I was flying. I pray and that usually calms the nerves.

The first thing I thought of was life, friendships, and love. We are not promised tomorrow, we only have today. Life can be snuffed out before we realize it. That is why it is so important to remember to tell those around us how much they mean to us and how we love them, and why it is so important to be ready. Are you ready?

“In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump; for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.” 1 Corinthians 15:52

Looking over my answers it is a good thing we only had two questions.  lol.  I told all of you before I like to talk.  All kidding aside, I would like to take the time to tell all my followers and all those who read my blog Thanks for taking time out of your busy life to read a little bit about mine.  And a special thanks to all those special friends I have made because of Random Dozen, "Who would of thunk it?"  I think I am going to try and do a Random Post each week of what is going on in my life.  Check back you never know what you might read.  Have a good week!  And remember God loves you!

until next time... nel


  1. My goodness those are some stories! I think a little fear is understandable in these instances.

    When I was ten a horse I was grooming got spooked by some wild horses they were bringing in to the stable. He reared up and clamped down on my foot catching mostly just my big toe which he broke. It made me skittish around them for a long time. I can't say I love to ride but I'll get on a horse if it is just a walk.

  2. Oh my, you certainly have cause to be afraid of horses and curves. Horses have big teeth, so I have a concern that they might bite.

    I worry about other drivers all the time, especially on narrow or curvy roads. Sometimes they don't seem to show very good judgment.

  3. Wow. Those are pretty scary stories; I can see why they would still bother you today!

  4. How frightening both of those must've been! Wow! I am going to miss the doz too, but will still keep following all my bloggy friends and acquantainces.

  5. I enjoyed reading your post today. I feel as though I know you a little better now. You are so right--we always need to be ready, I learned that a long time ago.
    I'll miss the Random Dozen, too. I plan to do a random post on Wednesdays, as well. I'm hoping someone will start another Wednesday meme soon.
    Best wishes,

  6. Nel, I can sure see why you would have a fear of horses! what an awful thing! so glad you recovered! And I'm sure your heart flip-flops a bit on curved roads too! but best thing you can do is what you do, pray....

    I had always said if I had a choice between losing my memory or having ill physical health, I would rather take ill physical health over dementia. My mom was sharp as a tack until she died at 85 years old. My MIL has Parkinson's disease and the dementia associated with it and it is sad to see her deterioration in this matter. I too told my husband put me in the nursing home and not feel guilty about it if I'm unable to take care of myself and it is a struggle for him to do so.