Be still...

I want to apologize in the beginning for this long post, but I just felt led to share what was on my heart...

Have you ever taken a step back and looked at the situation and realized your prayers were being answered but you were not listening? I am sure we have all done this more times than we would like to admit. We get caught up in the moment and human nature takes over and we forget to listen. We forget to listen to that small but oh so big voice that tries to guide us the way we need to go.
“Be still, and know that I am God:” Psalm 46:10a

As a lot of you know my daughter has been dealing with some health problems. About 4 months ago she was bowling with her family and friends when she started feeling funny. Actually she thought she was having a heart attack, so off to the ER they went. Thank God it was not a heart attack but they did think it was something to do with the heart. After many tests they decided she had this syndrome with a big long name, but basically it is where your brain and heart are not communicating properly and your blood pressure drops and you feel like you are going out. This is one of those syndromes that sometimes people have and do not realize it until it suddenly shows up. Basically there are three ways to correct this, 1) with diet change (lots of salt) 2) medicine or 3) a pacemaker. She had been having other symptoms also: just a yucky feeling, and no energy at all. They tried the diet change, but it did not make a difference, she could not handle the medicine because of the side effects it caused, so all that was left was the pacemaker. There was another important factor several times during this period her potassium level showed up as being low. Unfortunately she did not have a general physician, the one we had used for years had retired.

I want you to remember this has been 4 months my daughter has been dealing with these issues, and this momma has been worried. Key word worried, why do we worry? God has it under control; there were a lot of people praying for her. But again human nature takes over, I think us mommas just think we should be able to fix everything and if we can’t we worry about it.
“Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

Let’s fast forward to a week and a half ago, on a Thursday; she was scheduled for a pacemaker in Little Rock. She was ready for the surgery, x-rays were taken, blood was drawn, heart monitor was on, iv was inserted, the nurse came in and said all they were waiting on was the doctor. Five minutes later he came in and told us he was not doing the surgery, when they ran it through their program it kicked out that the insurance would not pay for it because she had not completely passed out. Unbelievable… or that was my thoughts at the time, I bit my tongue while he was talking, just could not believe this was happening. So we did the only thing we could do we left. My daughter handled it very well, she did not get upset, and they made a few phone calls to the insurance hoping to get something worked out.

My daughter and I were talking a few days later and we talked about how we believe that everything always happens for a reason, God is in control. Our prayers were answered, we had been praying that the Lord would take care of her and whatever she needed he would see to it. Evidently she does not need a pacemaker at this time, perhaps that pacemaker would not help with the sluggish worn out feelings, perhaps that has to do with the potassium levels. She has an appointment with a GP Thursday, they are going to start with new blood work ups and check everything.

It is so hard to see your kids hurting and feeling bad and you can’t fix them. But we can do one better we can pray and ask the Master Physician to wrap his arms around them and protect them and help them. But when we do we need to have faith He will answer our prayers if it is His will, we need to just lay it at His feet and give it to Him. A Lesson Learned!

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

until next time… nel

Please continue to remember my daughter and her family in prayer!